WOW!!!! That is the only word for today that I can come up with to describe how I feel. Eli was on my mind all day yesterday. I was wondering what in the world will he be like and how will he fit in our family. I tried to imagine his soft skin, black hair, and beautiful brown eyes. How will he smell, how will it feel to hold him for the first time? I prayed and ask God for a little gold nugget, just a reminder that this is really happening. Because when you are in the waiting process you feel like it's not really going to come to pass. Then today I opened my email and I saw her name, the name of the case worker at AIAA. She sent an email letting us know that our formal application is on the way. "Why is this such a big deal," you ask. Well I will tell you. Just one month ago we were told not to expect this process to move quickly and that it would take 4-6 months just to receive the formal application because we are at the end of a very long list. But God reminded me today that one month ago I sat here and said out loud "what the world thinks is impossible is possible with my Lord." Thank you Lord for reminding me that you are the one that is in control and you love us and want to give us our desires. I love you Father for this entire process it is changing my life. I am depending on you more everyday and I am seeing your will unfold before my very eyes. Jesus you are my all and all! I can't wait to see your perfect plan brought into fruition. I can't wait to hold your baby, the one you are trusting us with. Eli I love you and your Father in heaven has special plans for you, BIG, BIG plans!!!