Baby Eli

    The Lord God of all creation loves me, Kimberly Ann Williams! He has loved me from the womb and chose me before the creation of the world. I was on His mind when He hung to the cross and it was my sin, my shame, my guilt, my wretchedness, my wickedness, and my black heart that held my Savior to my cross! I will not walk under the yolk of the law any longer. I have been delivered. Praise be to the Lord Jehovah, my Lord and my God.

    The last two weeks have been the darkest of my entire life. You see I had allowed the enemy to still my joy and faith in my Father. I believed the lie of satan’s law. The law that states that I have to do something to earn my Father’s love. I started to believe the Lord had forsaken and abandoned me. I felt as if my prayers were not being answered and weren’t even going further than the ceiling. I was sick in my body, sick in my mind, and I was missing the baby the Lord has given me. I was vunerable and a perfect target for the enemy. But what was meant for evil, the Lord has redeemed for His glory.

    I was not raised in a Christian home and I think because of that I have always felt I had to earn the Lord’s love. But it is nothing I have done, but what He chose to do for me. I have continued to bind myself with expectations and laws that I can’t measure up to. I was begging the Lord to bring Eli home to me and when He didn’t answer I believed I had done something wrong. That it was my sin that was keeping the Lord from answering me. I also was begging the Lord to heal my body and when I became sicker once again I felt He had forsaken me. I repented for all sin the Holy Spirit convicted me of, but still no answered prayers. That is when the Holy Spirit led me to Galatians.

These are the verses He gave me:

3 Grace to you and peace from God the Father and our Lord Jesus Christ, 4 who gave Himself for our sins, that He might deliver us from this present evil age, according to the will of our God and Father, 5 to whom be glory forever and ever. Amen.

Gal 1:3-5 (NKJV)

    The first word Grace means- undeserved acceptance and love received from another. It was the grace of God that planned salvation for sinners in eternity past before the foundation of the world. It was grace that provided salvation in the historical death of Christ. It is grace that enables us to appropriate salvation, for it calls us to salvation, reveals Christ, and even gives the faith which is the condition of Salvation. It is the grace of God that calls and equips one for service in the Christian life. (Holman Bible Dictionary)

    I did nothing to deserve to be delivered from Hell and nothing to deserve the unconditional love of God. It was grace that led my Savior to Golgotha with me on His mind. I had forgotten the grace of God. My faith had failed me in my time of distress. I had lost the joy of my salvation and entangled myself with the religious yolk of bondage.

1 Now I say that the heir, as long as he is a child, does not differ at all from a slave, though he is master of all, 2 but is under guardians and stewards until the time appointed by the father. 3 Even so we, when we were children, were in bondage under the elements of the world. 4 But when the fullness of the time had come, God sent forth His Son, born of a woman, born under the law, 5 to redeem those who were under the law, that we might receive the adoption as sons. 6 And because you are sons, God has sent forth the Spirit of His Son into your hearts, crying out, "Abba, Father!" 7 Therefore you are no longer a slave but a son, and if a son, then an heir of God through Christ.

Gal 4:1-7 (NKJV)

    I have been set free from the bondage of the world. When God sent His son He paid for me with His blood and I can walk in obedience to the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit and not the law are my guide.

Jeremy kept giving me the scripture in Matthew:

7 "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 8 "For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. 9 "Or what man is there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 "Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent? 11 "If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!

Matt 7:7-11 (NKJV)

    If I want and desire to give Sam, Lily and Eli everything I can. If I lavish my love upon them no matter what they have done. How much more will my Heavenly Father give me. This leads me to the unanswered prayers. I know now why there is a wait for my baby.

    My neighbor Joe burnt his leg when he was trying to kill some hornets in his back yard. He was in Vanderbilt Hospital for eight days and had to get skin grafts. Two days ago his wife called me hysterical and needed my help. She was about to pass out trying to change his dressing. I ran over there and she came to my house to get the kids. While she was trying to round up her dog and my kid’s Joe started to pass out. I was alone and scared for him, but the Lord was with me. Gail came back and with the help of our other neighbor’s we managed to get him to the couch. After he felt better, I began to rub ointment on his badly burned wound. The other neighbor began to pray and I began to weep. I realized right then that God had me exactly where He wanted me. I said how grateful I was and how small my problems seemed in comparison to the pain he was in. I also felt the Lord speak and say, "If you were in Korea you wouldn’t be here showing my love for you neighbor." In that moment I felt the love of my Father more than I ever have. I realized that my hands at that moment were the hands of Jesus. As I dressed Joe’s wound, it brought healing to me and to him. I went back over last night and was able to have a 2-hour conversation about Jesus, hell, salvation, and the true gospel of Christ. Not a false religion that leads again to bondage, but the love of Christ Jesus.

    I also believe I went through this trial to expose legalism. That is why I’m posting this. If you are where I was. If you judge yourself and others. If you think it is within you to please God. Believe in the grace of the Lord Jesus. Allow him to deliver you and set you free. His yolk is easy and His burden is light.

The joy of my salvation has been restored!

11 "These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full. 12 "This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. 13 "Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends. 14 "You are My friends if you do whatever I command you. 15 "No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you. 16 "You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you. 17 "These things I command you, that you love one another. John 15:11-17 (NKJV)

13 "But now I come to You, and these things I speak in the world, that they may have My joy fulfilled in themselves. John 17:13 (NKJV)

    I will praise the Lord for His love toward me Kimberly Ann Williams. Perfect love, great love, never-ending love. What can separate us from the love of Christ Jesus.....absolutely nothing!!!!!