Baby Eli

I went to bed last night thinking back to the times when I was pregnant with Lily and Sam and how the Lord showed himself during those times. Then I receive a email this morning letting us know we will be traveling in October to get our baby.

Jeremy and I were married on October 9th, 2003 and became pregnant that December. WOW, what a surprise, we were not planning that at all. I had just started nursing school and I wasn't even on Jeremy's insurance plan yet. But this was no surprise to our Lord. He worked everything out and on August 28th, 2004 my sweet Lily was born. The moment she came out I was crying hysterically and praising the Lord. I just kept saying over and over, "thank you Jesus, thank you Jesus." I was madly in love with her instantly and the last 7 years have been more than precious. She is the most sincere, loving, patient, cuddly angel in the world. Then 2 1/2 years later after a miscarriage I became pregnant with my Sam. I knew he was a boy as soon as I knew I was pregnant. We were so excited and couldn't wait to be a family of four. I went in for my routine ultrasound at 20 weeks and the technologist kept looking at his brain and of course me the nurse ask what was going on. Sam had bilateral choroid plexus cyst on his brain. And that wasn't the only bad news she couldn't see his face to rule out anomalies and he had his fist clenched. I knew this meant they believed he had Downs Syndrome or Trisomy 18 which is not compatible with life. I was rescheduled for an u/s the day after Christmas. The cyst were gone but she still couldn't visualize his face. Because of all of this I didn't form a bond with him in utero because I had convinced myself he was going to die. And to be absolutely transparent with you I believe he was, but the Lord of the Universe healed him. My big baby boy was born on April 17th, 2008 weighing a whopping 8# 9oz. I had a very traumatic delivery with Sam. He was stuck in my pelvis and had the cord around his neck twice. He was fat and healthy with an extremely blue/purple face and his eyes were blood shot for 4 months. It was hard after because I felt detached and it didn't help matters that he suffered from extreme colic. He is now the joy of our lives. He is the complete opposite of his laid back sister. He is full of fire and vinegar, but his also very affectionate. Everyone has always said boys are affectionate and he most definitely is! I call him my preacher man because he has so much passion. We I pray he will say, "yes, yes" in agreement with everything I'm praying. I love my kids beyond measure.

Now my pregnancy with Eli. We found out we were expecting by email on April 18th, 2011 and just found out our approximate due date today. This pregnancy has been extremely hard due to the fact I can't protect him or feel him kicking inside my belly. I have received the adoptive version of u/s picture's which are a huge plus. So how will the delivery go? I'm praying now that he will have a smooth transition and that the labor pains won't last too long. It shouldn't since this is my third right? lol

I cannot wait to see this boy fit into our family. I so long for the day that he crawls to his big sister for comfort or a hug and he plays cars, trucks, and blocks with his big brother. To see his daddy hold him while he sleeps. But above all of this to see the mighty hand of God on his life. What will he do for the kingdom? I pray for a passionate desire to serve the Lord. I pray that he knows that we love him with an intense love and that he fills us with joy. I pray that he always knows what a blessing he is to our family. I can't wait to tell him his story and how the Lord divinely chose him to be our son!