The journey of adoption is one of many ups and downs, but mostly I have come to realize it is an all out spiritual battle. One that on most days I don't feel equipped to fight. Thankfully I don't fight my battles alone I have a heavenly Father that has promised to help me. Just like the Lord promised to help Gideon win the battle with just 300 men, He has promised He would see us through this process. Like Gideon I have been fearful, weak, unbelieving and I've even felt abandoned. In Judges 6:13 Gideon says, "O my lord, if the Lord is with us, why then has all this happened to us? And where are all His miracles which our fathers told us about, saying 'Did not the Lord bring us up from Egypt?' But now the Lord has forsaken us and delivered us into the hands of the Midianites."  He goes on to say in verse 15, "O my Lord, how can I save Israel? Indeed my clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my father's house." I have felt like the weakest and the least in my father's house these last few months. Going through this trial by fire has taught me that without Christ I have no strength, no endurance, no hope, and no promise. I like Gideon am fighting a large army. An army of satan's demon's that's job is to deplete me of all my strength and hope. Also, like Gideon I have doubted. When we first started this process we were receiving encouragement almost daily, but as time has passed people have gone on with their lives and don't realize how hard this really is. So I was sitting here last week feeling sorry for myself, but realizing at the same time that all I have to depend on is the Lord. I received a phone call that same day inviting us to dinner. We got there and ate dinner and then were told we had a surprise. I had no idea what was going to happen next. We were handed $7,700 to pay toward our loan for the adoption. I began to shake and weep. The Lord is still in control, He is still providing, and He has not forgotten. The God of Israel who fought for Gideon is the same God that is fighting for the orphans in Korea and He will win!!!