Dear Eli,

Your birthday has come and gone. We celebrated with a sweet cars cake that Sam just knew you would love and we spent some sweet time together as a family minus one. Mommy is much better this week thanks to much prayer. I really believe I'm coming soon. The Lord knows and that's all that matters. Sam has been carrying your picture around talking to you and feeding you part of his supper and sissy kisses you before bed every night. Your daddy brought up a good point the other night, you don't know who we are. I pray everyday that you will bond easily with us and that you won't grieve to hard or too long for your Umma. She will always be a part of your life. I already look forward to the day we return to Korea as a family to meet your first family. I love you my little one year old boy!!! I'll see you soon!!!